Usually when I decide to post something in my blog I try and put me in there. After all, this is what I know best. I suppose I could comb the web for articles about all the things that interest me to share with you but my life, as of late, is just too damn interesting not to share. This is the most important time of my life - right now! Besides, Collapsing Duality gives me a medium to record all these important things that are transpiring in my life - like a journal of sorts. Whether or not what I write can touch off some insight in another, is just the icing on the cake :)
For those of you have read some of my past blogs, you know that I am currently in the middle of connecting with what most people would define as a "Twin Flame." I would actually prefer not to call it anything but most of what I've read would indicate that that is exactly what I am in - and the universe keeps unfolding before me, showing me new things all the time. This string of consecutive synchronicities, I believe, has paved the way for a deeper understanding between my twin flame and I. One that I never expected.
It all began while thinking about all the synchronicities that have happened to us - signs that point to something much more special than I've ever known. I know the universe is doing this for a purpose and will continue to do so into the future, but what about the past? Pondering that question I began to think of the oldest memory that I have. Immediately I was taken back to that little girl who was wearing a dress. She stood on the front lawn of an old house before a group of tall trees. There was a driveway of sorts with worn down grass that ran inbetwen the grouping of trees and the house, itself. The feeling I had while seeing that little girl, was that this was me, a long long time ago. I also remember seeing this same little girl in that same dress admiring a grouping of flowers with a well beyond those flowers on the other side of that house.This memory I have is the oldest one in my mind. I used to ask my mother about it when I was young but she couldn't make heads or tales of what that was all about. What I do know is that this memory, technically should not be there or at least it is not a part of anything that's gone on in this lifetime.
So...on that note, I decided to ask Paula (my twin flame) what her oldest memory was, without telling her mine ;) I wanted her to go first. So she began to tell me that she's had this recurring dream of a little girl and a little boy playing in the yard - then she went on to describe everything that I just put down and much more. She described the girl in the dress exactly how I remember it and then went on to describe the area of the yard, where I remember seeing that little girl. She even described a little boy who she was playing with and that they seemed to share this very tight bond. This area of the yard, was their favorite place to play - under the trees. She told me that their names were Bud and Kiddie. Everytime, Kiddie would get too close to the well that was in the yard, Bud would come over in hysterics with tears rolling down his face and get her away from the well. He was scared for her. Paula got the feeling that it was as if Bud knew something that she didn't...as if he was somewhat more aware and she was just a happy go lucky little girl. When Paula described what transpired between the little boy and girl, by the well, it was as if I had the wind knocked out of me. Tears rolled down my own face because what she described sparked something in me that I had forgotten. In other words, this is not something I remember like the memory of the girl in the dress but when Paula described what happened it all came back to me.
Whatever the case, my twin flame and I are able to describe the same house with the same yard. Paula got the feeling from this recurring dream that the little girl was supposed to be her only she never gave it much thought until I asked her to think real hard about anything that stands out as a memory. Even though I always thought the little girl was supposed to be me, the thinking is now that the boy was probably me which would explain why I remember the girl so well and she remembers the boy so well. You have to remember, this is the oldest memory I have, I think I'm lucky to remember it at all. Nevertheless we are most certainly talking about the same time and place - only in another lifetime.
I always wondered if reincarnation was possible and once again the universe has provided an answer to that question.
Moving forward with these past life memories, we've thought about delving deeper into them and perhaps even pursuing a past life regression session to see what transpired between the two. For now, though, Paula would like to wait because the feeling she got from the dream was one that, something went wrong and she is not ready to feel that again - which is understandable. I myself, would still be open to past life regression. Although, the way the universe has provided the answers to any of our questions in the past, I'm not sure if we're going to need one.
So, what is the oldest memory YOU have??? Think about it - because you never know :-)
Peace to you all Paula and Brendan
